thanks vonn glad i can put a smile on your face, glad everything is sounding better for you, last week you were so down

renee i may not have all the facts but this is the second time he has done this to you. make a fool of me once and shame on you make a fool of me twice and shame on me, its a dumb saying but very true, like vonn said you have found yourself and climbed a mountain in the past month, i cant tell you what to do,
after what he did and put you through saying i love you doesnt fix it, in my eyes he has a long way to go before he even gets in my door, and odds are he will do this again to you, he thought of himself and himself only,
like i said i dont have all the facts, but i would smack the smile off his face if it were me, and yes i have been through this, abandoned and left with a ten month old and a two yr old child, bank acct cleaned out and i survived and became stronger everyday, and yes i was scared as heck, but was also proud of myself my kids and myfriends who were able to help me, sorry if you feel this is not my place to talk about this, but what he did to you, was wrong and hurtful, and your heart is too good to be treated in such a way

i neeeeeeeddddddd cooooffffffffeeeeeeeeeeee now

Hey everyone. I'm still wiped out from my cross country adventure with Grandma. My arms are also giving me fits, so typing is not easy. They feel like I've been lifting weights just from typing. Makes me want to cry.

We are coming up on the end of baseball season. I want to both celebrate and cry. I love watching my boys play baseball, but it will be nice to not run so much.

Well, my arms are done with this. Talk to you all later.

sorry u r feeling like that holly, but dont cry, it wont help and it may upset you more and stress is not our friend. how is grandma doing? have u talked to your doc about this pain?

hope you feel better real soon

Vonn, I am happy that things are working out for you. You deserve a break!

Renee, At first I was not going to say anything about your post, but I also am concerned about you. There is such a thing as emotional abuse as well as physical abuse. I hope you do realize that you deserve to be treated with both respect and love.

I have to go into school today to back up some more files as they are installing my new computer on Thursday. I might go see Sex and the City this afternoon. The weather is beautiful here today.

Hey all thanks for the concern, I wouldn't count yall as such wonderful friends if you weren't honest with me. Like I said I have not posted everything and I really understand everyones concern as they mirror my own. I have made it clear to him that i am not going to keep doing this, that how he did this both times was dead wrong...his attorney is the one who advised him and he is a dumbarse in my opinion,as i said I have put many many terms down that he has to go thru in order to even consider it. I will say though that part of what he is going thru I think is psychological and part physical... I am by no means making excuses, but he actually does not remember whole conversations he has had with people etc. he is going to counseling as well as to a doctor he has had severe headaches for the past 4 years and this combined with the losing conversations and not knowing he actually went somewhere is concerning to me. Well gotta run for now as I have a guy coming to the houseto work on the satellite....oh btw just in case yall are worried I am not taking care of me...I am going to therapy twice a week myself with a wonderful minister who has been a dear friend to me since I was a child.

oh, honey!

you're so brave, my leetle Vonny...

want to tell you though, I use the BRUSH technique, just in case it might be a fire ant, or a bee, which I don't want to BITE me when I squooosh 'em... 'cause I'm allergic.

BUT... your method is indubitably BETTER while driving, since you don't want whatever-it-is loose in a moving vehicle while you're driving, giving it a second chance to land or crawl on you.

most of the spiders I leave alone, webs-and-all (unless company's coming, LOL!) because they catch other things that bother me more.

the main ones I kill are the wolf spiders...

tarantulas I catch (or more likely, make mi esposo do it!) and release outside safely... the only danger with them is they have urticarious hairs they can shoot off their abdomens, which can cause eye problems... otherwise, they're pretty cool.

and scorpions, they usually meet their maker if they come into my house.



oh, and good job on the house-hunt, I'm so happy you have secured something suitable.

you DESERVE it !!

Frank, you OWE me a new keyboard, dude !!

'cause I just spilled coffee ALL over mine...

I was laughing so hard I nearly, well, never mind.

the main ones I kill are the wolf spiders...

tarantulas I catch (or more likely, make mi esposo do it!) and release outside safely... the only danger with them is they have urticarious hairs they can shoot off their abdomens, which can cause eye problems... otherwise, they're pretty cool.

and scorpions, they usually meet their maker if they come into my house.
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And my cleaning lady gets upset by the little ants in the house!!

yes, Belize has the longest reef in this hemisphere, and the 2nd longest in the world, with the best diving and snorkeling EVER !!

just make sure (especially if you have numbness issues) that you ARMOUR up before beach-combing... there's sand fleas and no-see-ums, and you can get bit to heck without even knowing it.

people with MS and peripheral neuropathies are especially vulnerable...

jellyfish can also be an issue... so I like FULL-coverage scuba suits, even while merely snorkeling.

the most unfair part is that there's different neuro sensors for feeling the BITE, and feeling the later ITCH caused by the bugs' anticoagulant or venom.

so... I can't feel the bites (to slap or whack them away, or KNOW it's time to LEAVE) but unfortunately, I CAN feel the itching...

wah wah wah!

oh, and Trish, if you hold your dream close, and pinch your pennies, and plan well, someday you can make it come true!

I managed (with lots of help) to swim with the ray mantas in Tahiti... I wanted to do it sooooooooooo bad, that I convinced them to let me (despite liability issues up de wazoo) even though I was in a wheelchair.

it took two guides to help me stay with the group, and attached to the rope (I hooked my elbows over it, as my numb weak hands couldn't hold on to the rope)

and that's given me memories I will NEVER forget !!

a really nice thing about snorkeling is that most of the MS just disappears, in the cool water, and floating...

serenity, and bliss, I highly recommend it !

NaeNae, big-sister time!

you can tune me out if you want, but here's my advice anyway.

like Frank, I don't know the whole situation, but please think really HARD before you give this guy another chance.

because we love you and can't stand to think of you being hurt again.

I'd say, give it a YEAR to see if he can straighten himself out before you even CONSIDER getting back together with him.

your emotions are probably all in a big ol' tangle right now, and that leaves you vulnerable to his pleas and ploys.

he may very well HAVE the best intentions (I can't know) but patterns are patterns, and even if he doesn't do it on purpose, he will probably hurt you again.

plus, the trust in your relationship is totally *evaporated* right now.

that needs TIME to be rebuilt, otherwise, all you'll do (even if you try NOT to) is WATCH him suspiciously, and worry, and there'll be sniping and undercurrents all over... and maybe even arguments.

please, pretty please, heed my warnings (I have been there, and OWN this T-shirt, totally!)

give it time, and if it's real, the relationship will heal and come back together, given nurturing and hope and love.

but if it doesn't, you won't be so badly stuck again, or boxed into a corner.

I know it's hard to be a single mom, and even HARDER to be alone, but it might just be what you NEED right now, some time of solitude, meditation, and HEALING.

so, resist his pleas, and give it a year, to make sure, okay dear?

okay, big-sister-rant over.