((Addy)) Sure hope you don't feel pushed by anyone here! You already know all too well all we really can do is share and hope something we say helps.

Now...in our delicate conditions you may not be interested in this place, but it's pretty great if you can get through it. It's called Fly Lady and it supposedly can help people like us with 'clutter' problems. I was going to write to the creator at one time and ask her how it applied to people with severe depression issues, but I didn't. http://www.flylady.net/

Hugs.

it was me. i mentioned the cat box.

Curious..you are a jewel....! Yes, it must have been the CAT BOX! *grin

well..from one animal to another...i was worried about the cat.

i wish i could just hop in my car and be there addy. i know me coming wouldn't really help...deep down. i love to clean and organize. weird huh?

see...when i get it all done...i paint or do crafts. that is my reward. do you need any painting done? i want to visit doody too.

I meant pushing in a good way... the best way... pushing me more in the direction I was going to go or thinking of going or knowing I had to go

The first push I used was the kitty litter - and I think the next push is my dishes... ok... Doody... IF I do mine, I'll let you know...

I'll check out that fly lady website...

Taking another day off tomorrow.
I will go to work on Wednesday - I'm being recognized for my "high quality" customer service...
the reward doesn't even come close to recognizing the loss of my mental health...

no prize can replace it

on that day I will make the decision - along with a doctor -

should I stay or should I go now...

Lordy, lordy... you would think that by age 53, I could recognize that finally I was sick! sick of everything... and finally, my body gave it and I have a bad cold and almost no voice - my insides saying you won't listen to the mental... ok, then, listen to the physical...

you are too sick to go to work girlfriend!

yay... yay... yay....

and reading back through this thread has given me the reminders to visit the doctor on Monday and take next week off work, too...

AND... speaking of the Lord....

I have been called in to the prospective new job for further testing, next Thursday, several hours before my flight leaves for the singing contest in the province of Saskatchewan.

AND after that testings, one more interview on the 15th, should I pass the testing (easy stuff like word, powerpoint and excell) - IF I don't pass the testing, I will still be looked at.

Slowly, I am cleaning up the clutter... mostly inside...

and I thank the Lord that I didn't get so sick that I can't sit here and write to you all.

thanks so much for being here for me!!!

(((Addy))) I've wondered about you every single day so I'm so glad you posted. Even though you've been sick you sound (by the written word) much better. I hope those tests go really well!!! This could be a big blessing for you.

And guess what. I made myself today go out and mow and trim my lawn. Couldn't before because of the heavy rains and flooding we had last week.

Then I was going to come inside and flop and sleep and ended up sweeping and picking up just a little.

However, there are still all those huge messes all over my house that will take days and days and days to deal with!

If you get a chance, do read some of the basics at that Fly Lady site. My favorite part is the setting a timer for 15 minutes and only working that long and taking a break. It does help.

Much love and hugs and have tons of fun on your singing trip.

I'm glad you no longer have the emotional sniffles - those are much harder to handle.

Hope the doc visit goes well tomorrow, and I hope you'll be back to singing loud and clear soon.

will bring baby for you to "change"

so, the answer to your post is, "actually,yes and no...you can only change yourself, but you can also change the baby..."



now, changing the catbox...well, that is a whole another story...we don't just change the catbox in this household. We treat them like kings! (the cats, not the cat box)

First,good luck with your singing,I love to sing! And with your new job hunt. One thing,I have a major OCD with cleanliness,and things being in order.But something I've noticed,is that when you live in a house,or Apartment that is clean,and organized,you feel more relazed inside,mentally,and you're mind is able to feel more organized as well,and your thoughts don't get so scrambled as easy. It's much easier to keep a house clean,doing little here and there,than waiting until it gets a mess,and then doing a huge cleaning job. So,just as an Idea,hoping it helps at all with your mental stress level.Just a little organizing here and there,and a clean house,can really make a huge difference with the way you feel inside.
I hope that helps,cause I really go nuts when I see something out of place,I'm like almost as bad as "MONK",on that TV show,but not quite that bad,but It does feel good coming home to a clean house,and you can just relax,put your feet up! It's great.
And it's not weird to love cleaning,and stuff,because I think it's more the outcome that you love the most! To the one who thought it was weird! lol....