It can take anywhere from 6 months to a year for my vision to improve. The lady at the Eye Istitute said my surgery is one of the most aggravating ones to have to have with a long recovery period. I'm so very sleepy today and just want to sleep to forget. The good thing is though is that I ate good today for a change.

barbara

I'm gettting ready to call it an early night tonight. I can not get anyone by phone to talk to tonight. I watched a little T.V. for as long as I could stand it with my eyes not focusing. I feel really deserted by a lot of people that I know. That hurts a great deal to know that people can be so cold to anohter human being. I hate my brothers who have always told me I need to be indedepent. All that boils down to is they don't want to ever be there for me. If they saw me this down in the dumps they'd try to have me put in the hospital so they would not have to deal. It's just as well they are not in my life.

barbara

i am sorry it will be such a long time healing. i had no idea. that is an ordeal.

your brothers don't seem to have the concept of independent down too well. being independent doesn't mean never needing anybody. i'm sorry you don't have some family that you can get on with. time back, i think you mentioned a half-sister that you talked to sometimes... are you still in touch with her? i think you could use some companionship plain and simple, even if you aren't very close.

~ waves ~

Dear Barbara,

I'm sorry about your brothers.
Remind yourself that you have done well with this.

Contact your doctors and get some help.
They are aware of agencies in the area that can bring you
recordings of books on CD, movies, equipment that can help you,
and so on. Also, you might be able to get someone to come to
your house twice a week or more often to help you during these weeks after the surgery.
You might be able to get someone to give you rides to the
grocery store and stuff like that.

You live in a big enough place that has these services.

Contact each doc and nurse that you have dealt with and let them know
you are alone and need help. Ask them to refer you to some agencies.
Also, contact your health insurance.
HELLO! They might cover some things that your docs has not
asked for and that you have not thought about.

Social workers tend to be hooked up with information more
than doctors but doctors can send you to social workers.

Good luck Barbara.
I looks like you might need plans
for 1) short term, 2) mid range, 3) long term while you recover.

I'm sending you healing vibes.
Dark blue is a good healing color for the eyes.
I'm sending you intense blue. -- pretend that this is indigo.

M.

Thanks you Waves and Mari.

Mari, I had some help for the 1st 3 weeks. I Can Not get anymore help unless I pay for it. My main concern is being alone and bored. I can do for myself pretty much except drive. No one is going to pay for some one to be here to keep me company. I do not want books on video. I have a T.V. I can listen to if I want to listen to something. Books are boring to me, a big BORING unless they are textbooks which in that case it would take some action on my part. I really appreciate your suggestions but I have been hearing the same things for over a month now.

This is what I do that works for me. I walk to the local bar and try to be around ohter people instead of being so isolated. I can not sit in the bar all day and there are not going to be someone there to talk to each time I go there. If it rains I can not walk to the bar but have to stay home all day.

I have a bubble in my eye which is a real PAIN in the butt. It puts me in a bad mood when I can not see good enough to fix my hair the way it should look. It bothers me when I can not see very well who I'm talking to. I have business that I need to conduct on the day by day living that I have hard time doing becasue I can not see good enough to take notes or to even get to the places I need to be to take care of the business.

I know everyone is trying to be helpful with suggestions of what I can do but I have already heard the same suggestions a hundred times and I should by all means know by now what I want to do or can do. I guess from now on when I post I'll have to say please no suggestions.

not sure if i made a suggestion but i do apologize if my question was indelicate. i certainly did not mean to add insult to injury.

thank you for speaking up about not wanting suggestions. as you say, people try to be helpful and in the way of that, when we think of things... we do tend to suggest them. so it is good to be clear about that. i don't always think of it myself, and in some situations, i get frustrated by suggestions. but until that happens, i often don't realize i perhaps am needing/wanting a different sort of support.

take care.

~ waves ~

Thank you Waves for understanding. I suppose it would be a good idea for us to post that we are not looking for any suggestions from the get go. I just want some hugs and sympathy I suppose.

I walked back up to the local bar again today and was able to have a pleasant conversation with another person in there. That made me feel so much better like I'm not so isolated. I feel like a complete different person now after having some human contact wiwth a person to talk to. My head feels clearer. The bug man came to spray before that and spoke with me which really lifted my spirits. He asked me if I worked from home! Imagine that all the business I have to contact makes my home look like I am taking care of a working home business.

Barb

I'm not sure but there are agencies that can help with the paperwork,
and with some of the other things you listed.

I don't know but you might try contacting the agency in your area that
handles things like Medicaid waivers. See if they have any thing that
can help you.


I am not sure this is making sense.

Donna

Donna, my resources are too much to get any type of assistance from anywhere without me footing the bill. Believe me, I know this good and well by now. I don't need anyone to take care of my paper work as it can only be done by me. The only paper work someone could do is to write out my checks but there are tons of other paperwork that needs attention. I can not say at the time of why I have so much paper work as for now it is best not to talk about due to the nature of those things.

I am really going to be alright as I am taking care of things one step at a time. I may reach out to some of you in PMs for your expertise on information that I could use.

Thank you,
barbara

Thanks for letting me know Barb.

I wasn't thinking of resource's.

Donna