Sending hugs. They will have many unhappy people working
to yell at them if they take the rent control away.

i just think its not something they better touch.

donna

i haven't liked myself lately. i can't get out of this latest rut and i don't like what it is doing with my thoughts. my energy level is so low. my friend sent me a video of a dog being rescued. she was found in a heap and was blind and flea infested. they rescued.....bathed her and defleaed(spl-wd) her, took her to a vet who restored sight in one eye and a few weeks later she was adopted.....what a tale...i donated ten dollars to the rescue group. i was so touched. i felt human for a while. I can't seem to read to escape. I am just overwhelmed with fears.
bobby

Well I am in your boat with you, in a rut. wish we could row a boat out of it. I am thinking about you too today. Reading is what I am trying to do too. You are in my thoughts bobby. ginnie

Glad about the rescue dog, that was generous of you for your donation.
Some how the rent issues are going to have to be put on back burner. I hope that you go to the center today. Good distraction from your worries.
love bizi

Dear Bobby

That poor dog! It was good of you to send a donation.

Sorry you are in this rut. I agree with Bizi... try to get out to the center, or to a neighbor's.

I know how it feels not to like oneself. You are very critical as I am. Might it help to think in terms of "things you like" and "things you dislike" about yourself, rather than putting your entire self in the dislike pot?

Would you try this? Get a piece of paper and pen/pencil. Divide it into two columns - "LIKE" and "DISKLIKE." Every time you feel you dislike yourself, ask yourself the specific reason and write that in the dislike column. Then, sit and and think. Find something you like about yourself, and write that next to it, in the like column.

If you are having trouble thinking of things to LIKE about Bobby, I can start you off

• you are kind
• you love animals
• you are honest
• you are loyal
• ...

It is better though, to actually go through the process of digging in your own brain for things you appreciate in yourself. When you are ready, you can always up the ante on this exercise, and for each dislike, find two things you like. (Don't worry, there are plenty.) Then when you need a bit of a pick me up..........

Read your LIKE column (and only that column)!

love

~ waves ~ who didn't really mean to make work for you... just an idea...

Bobby,

I like Waves's suggestion.

After you make your list, you could look in the mirror and say:

I love the way I take care of my friends.
I love how compassionate I am.
I love . . .
I love . .. . .. . . about myself.
I love the way I can . ... . .


=-=-=-=-=-=-
Would you say that you have a good sense of humor?
. . . have an openness to learning new things?

M

thank you ginnie
woke up again in worse depression....started to talk to God....think i should apologize..i feel i just have screwed up royally. i am so scared about losing my apartment...so scared about my teeth...just so scared of life....a fellow at my table is in the hospital. he hasn't been feeling good. i am worried about him. another one at my table is having a rough time and his psychiatrist and therapist are trying to talk him into having electric shock treatment again. two others are depressed. i think i am going to skip going to the center today.
a close friend is having bad skin problems...constant itching. his doctor finally ruled out his cat who he has been separated from. he might enter a trial where the placebo group is twenty percent. he sounds so miserable. my refound friend thank goodness is out of the woods in getting into trouble with her brother-in-law. he helps her out financially and she needs more dental work. she is going to buy a mac and he tried to give her an old pc. she felt as if she were walking on a tight rope. how could she buy a mac yet ask for money for her teeth. I am so glad i have resumed my friendship with her. She is part dog..they all love her madly.
bobby

this is the link to the video http://www.godvine.com/Blind-Dog-Liv...cued-1290.html thank God it had a happy ending....otherwise it would have been unbearable...it was a bipolar video with the mood swing it produced. I was compelled to give money. I didn't feel generous-it was just something i had to do. I had no choice. I don't know how to put the rent issues on the back burner. I don't think the supreme court will rule them unconstitutional but i still worry. I just hope it doesn't take the case. I keep on checking on google news for any new news. what a waste of time.
Love
bobby

thanks for starting me off. before you started me off I couldnt think of anything. boy when i am down i am really down. I will try to make a list later this morning.....i feel all the things i dislike will be easier to write down. i am a real disappointment to myself. i wrote it. i don't know how you are supposed to be at going on 68. a couple of friends my age are very active physically. i definitely am the opposite although up until eleven years ago i was very active. then i imploded. i feel so lazy. my biggest activity is petting the kitty cats and typing. then ice cream was on sale and i bought two pints.
i have been so good about ice cream. i have resisted. this time i bought black raspberry and kofti with pistachio and cardamon....that one i had last night and it was really really good but not worth gaining weight. I seemed to like myself better when i was on a diet and losing weight. i felt as if i was accomplishing something. now i am stuck with the idea of eating chicken again since my doctor who has a specialty in endrocrinolog(sp) said i should eat black beans and lentils in moderation and that he felt oatmeal had too many carbohydrates. here I was eating steel cut oatmeals thinking i was doing myself a favor. I guess i must be very feeling very angry and at the same time feeling very ungrateful. last night i didn't take my medicine on purpose. I am not sure what that was about. i will take it as soon as i stop posting and reading the other posts. it is easy to take the medicine because they are on a chinese bench at the head of the futon.
i am very angry. i am very frustrated. i am taking too much for granted. I am really asking for it.
love you
bobby

i do have a sense of humor and especially like to make the joke on me and have an openness for learning new things or checking out facts. right now it might be too painful to look in a mirror and say what i like about myself. i don't understand why. thank you for the suggestions.
bobby