I just broke down in front of my fiance because i just dont understand what is happening to me. This was supposed to be the best time of our lives. We are getting married in June in the mountains of asheville, nc. Im only 31 and currenlty undiagnosed for nearly 3 months. I'm lucky to not be in terrible pain but the doctors cant seem to figure out anything and my symptoms dont seem to be getting any better. One day ill think im getting better only to be knocked down the next day with worse symptoms.

Ive remain pretty optimistic but i have moments like these that really tear me apart. Im scared of what the future may hold, how raising a family would be, etc and so on.

I started a sports pick-up group in my city 2 years ago, id never been super athletic but loved sports. In 2 years it grew to 350 people strong. I became one of the top 15 volleyball players in the group, and believe me, my skills started at nothing. I met many great people and kept in great shape and had lots of fun. Now i cant play at all because it makes my symptoms worse. Im just at a loss..

Thanks for listening, i needed to vent and could use any support...
Steve