I am sorry your struggling. I know this is a scary thing to face and with so much unknown. My best advice is to stay in the moment which is super hard I know but I am trying to work on that myself. Unfortunatly Melody is right that it takes time to figure out what is going on. With the proper treatment things can get better though. Do you think maybe going to talk to a therapist may help? I waited to long to see someone and get on proper mental meds. It won't take away your physical but it can help with coping and anxiety around it. Are there things you can do with your current physical limits to lift your spirits? I wish I had more answers for you. I hope you can hold to hope and get relief/answers