Hey Bobby I'm not on Klonopin. I'm taking Xanax. I've been taking it for years.

I'm glad that you have a friend to talk to every day. I think that you are going to get some snow up there in New York tonight. BF

I am glad that you went to the cardiologist...these tests sound appropriate....very glad to hear that you have 2 kitties to love!!!!!
bizi

i am wondering if klonopin would work a lot better for you. i take klonopin two m.
bobby

thank you Bizi
the kitty cats are truly wonderful. I still miss snowball so much. I liked the the cardiologist. the most questions he asked were about my former smoking. I was so glad i was no longer smoking.
bobby

i'm sorry about your uncle. and sad that Myrna was not up to sharing your burden, emotional and financial. but i liked Di's suggestion about writing to her all the same. and i hope you will take others up on their offers to contribute.

i am glad you liked the cardiologist. i'm thinking of you and wishing you peace.

love, w.

Dear Bobby,
I like how you found a good dr.
That dr and appt. business can be hard. Take it one step at time.

M.

Hi Mari
I think I was very lucky finding that doctor. I haven't had the same luck finding a lung doctor. I will wait to see what the cardiologist says before I go to the lung doctor. I chose a lung doctor at Lenox Hill because it is a good hospital and somebody said they probably only choose good doctors. I wonder if I can rely on that. The one I chose is one the medical plan.
I got on the scale just now and i weight four pounds less than yesterday.
I am terrified about my weight. My eating is totally out of control although except for a bag of potato chips which I haven't had in a long time is mostly low caloric food. I can't stop eating out of anxiety.
bobby

i dodn't know what is happening to me. right now it is hard for me to feel love. my friend sent me a picture of her new kitty cat danni and she is precious. she weighs seven poundsand is 12 years old. Alice's friend had a a bad stroke and can no longer take care of Danni and it is working out purfectly...yesterday Danni was the only thing i could feel something for...i am like stone. i really put myself the day before with a close friend and that totally flattened me.
I haven't written Myra or called her. I wonder now if i am jealous of her. I was never jealous of her. She has a family and grandchildren. I just feel so very alone. I always have felt so alone. It reminds me of an Ibsen play when the family is starving and the father comes home from a dinner and describes everything he ate to his starving family.
The Rabbi hasn't called me back about partially subsidizing the prayers for my uncle but my friend in Israel agreed with me that it is too uncomfortable to accept money from them. Suri said she would help take care of it in Israel.
I have so much admiration for Di. So much admiration. Of course she made me feel like a worm but who is judging.
Love you
Bobby

I wish you would do some research on klonopin and see if you might think that that might help your panic attacks better than Xanax. Waves could probably help you better than most psychiatrists in this area.
Bobby

When I have fear,and panic,I can't feel love very well either. It makes you feel alone in the world. Hang in there. BF