Dear BJ,

i read about your having done your nursery rhyme last night... and just spaced out... wowww. well done. sounds like you have learned something from it already from seeing the word 'fear' repeated.

Remember, if you feel too uncomfortable singing it, tell your therapist firmly that you are not up to that. if she insists, perhaps you can ask to meet her half way and only sing a line. also, since they are your words, you might ask her NOT to sing them with you or for you. i don't know but i got the sense that HER doing that hurt worse than the idea of your doing it yourself. possibly because, if it were me, i would feel violated. so that is me, but if that aspect - her singing - felt wrong to you too, then make that a boundary, and ask her to respect it.

i just think Mari had a very good point, so quoting it. highlighted the part that i consider the crux. how so exhausting it is to "seem." and with a t, it is not useful - with the outside world unfortunately, we do need to do that a lot.

Well done again on the Homework!

~ waves ~