Hello Sandy,

I'm sorry you are going through so much. You really need a psychologist as part of your medical team to help you deal with the side effects of RSD/CRPS. This is important to you and your loved ones.

I'm just like you I have wanted to quit at one time or another. I have full body RSD/CRPS with my lungs and heart being involved. I struggled with wanting someone to pay for what had been done to my health. Then I realized my health was the most important thing to take care of. The energy I was wasting by being angry could be used to help me learn to cope. Instead of looking for someone to take responsibility for my RSD/CRPS I needed to take responsibility for my health care. We can't control what was done to us but we can control what we will do for ourself.

Being the daughter of a marine you have watched your father learn to survive. Now it is your turn to survive. None of us do this alone we all have support. My psychologist plays a huge role in my ability to survive, he is my saftey net.

RE-read the comments in this thread as often as you need. Print them out and put them where you will see them through out your day. The advice from the other members is sound advice spoken from the heart and from experience.

If you don't have a personnel relationship with God now is the best time. He will give you a peace of mind that passes all understanding if you just ask. The day I started to end my life, becuase of pain, he stopped me. I small voice in my head said "This isn't what I have planned for you".

It's O.K. to take medication for depression and seek the help of a psychologist. God works through the hands and minds of doctors to get his work done.
May you find comfort in knowing you are loved and cared for.
Take care of you,
Sherrie