Well, i don't know if i told you or not but i got a phone call postponing my appointment with all my sleep docs. Not for another 3 weeks.

Yeah i slept yesterday, but not last night, probably cause i took the pills during the day. But i know what happens when i keep taking those kind of pills, it takes more and more. I was almost taking 12 tylenol pm once every night just to sleep for a while because i got so used to them, so i really have to be careful.

I am trying to get laundry done here at home and then have to do some cleaning but am having a really hard time right now. I can't stop shaking and just too many thoughts right now. Laundry is almost overwith and then i have to clean the appartment, which i am not supposed to even pick up a broom cause of my back but don't want my dad and step-mom to say anything when they get home tomorrow.

Thanks everyone,
jen

oh i think i misspoke. This was years ago that i was taking the tylenol PM and it just got out of control. I am taking the Tylenol with codeine right now for pain but i take maybe 2 a day and am allowed 4 plus i can take soma with it too and am allowed 3 a day and i take maybe 1
I didnt' mean to give you the wrong idea, i haven't taken tylenol pm in years because of what I used to do with it, and how addictive that stuff can be at least to me it can be. I am sorry if I misspoke and you mis understood, i no longer take that at all. I did ask if I could take it but because am already taking a medication with tylenol in it it's too much for my system.
I hope that helps some.
Thanks jen

lol Jen, ok... i guess you saw my other post before i removed it... and then i got a phone call so i couldn't post right away... thanks for clearing that up!!!

the shaking made me wonder about narcotic withdrawal, partly because i thought the Tylenol had codeine in it... but i see that it doesn't! it has diphenhydramine in it though! but i'm wondering still, since you do take codeine...

do you ever take 'extra' codeine, and how much?

i'm sorry they postponed your appointment, but if this sleep thing is med-related or med-withdrawal related it can be clarified before you see the specialist all the same.



~ waves ~

No i don't take extra of anything. I take what is prescribed most of the time, or try to...if anything when it comes to the pain pills i don't take as much as they say i can take. I don't know why that is, just don't feel like i should because sometimes am not in that much pain, but when i get in the severe pain like now it takes so much longer to work...so am going to have to find a happy medium.

I don't think the sleep thing is med related except for maybe the Nardil at all. I am almost off it anyways. I am only taking a few of them and none at night so it shouldn't be affecting that. I just guess i don't understand because when i took the 4 pm dose when i was on it, it put me right to sleep, and i don't know what or why i can't sleep.

I am working on alot of memories in therapy and my T thinks it could have a lot to do with what is going on. I am still journaling and there are things starting to happen with the memories now that I don't know what to do. I want to take more of those pills again, but I have so much more to do around here. My PT told me not to vacume for at least another 2 months but my step-mom can be a b**** when it comes to it being a clean house. It is very clean here and I just got done with 4 loads of laundry so am going to try and just relax and maybe try and eat a little.

I still don't feel very good, I am hardly drinking anything, i am trying to drink gateraid cause water from the faucet i can't stand. So i try and get some electrolights in me, i don't know what it is, i used to drink a lot of water and other stuff but now i hardly drink now. I don't eat hardly either. Probably just so tired.

So am going to try and get a little nap in before the storms arrive again. Going to turn on the air and get the humidity out of here or at least try.

Take care and thanks for caring,
Jen

if you have been reducing the Nardil, it may affect your ability to sleep. but that should even out again soon after the dosage is restabilized at a new level or you suspend if that is what you are shooting for.

interesting that your T thinks the things you are working on could have to do with this. i would tend to agree with her. it is certainly something that can throw you into a state of hypervigilance. if that is the case it is most likely a phase, and you will come out of it again spontaneously. i am really glad that you talked to her about it. she sounds as though she is really looking out for you too.

i am sorry your step-mom is such a pain. it's tough being caught between doing something that will hurt you physically, and not doing it and having someone else upset you about it. but i hope that you don't vacuum, that you do get some rest, and that your step-mom will be ok with the house as it is.

take care

~ waves ~

the sleep thing has been going on since March and I just started reducing Nardil so probably not due to reduction in Nardil.
It very well could be with crap am dealing with memories and stuff, but I have no clue. I just don't know anymore and I don't think it is going to be figured out for a long time.
I really have no hope for a solution very soon, and am going on 3 months now with very very very little sleep. The docs even thought my body was shutting down at one point, so am going through physical symptoms of this too. It's just one big mess and right now i don't know how much longer my body and mind can stand it.
i have to wait till see the specialist and that's 3 weeks, i don't know right now.

hey there Jen,

yes, that's right - if you just started reducing the Nardil it can't be a discontinuation syndrome.

3 months of hardly sleeping is horrible. i wish there were some way you could see the doc faster - maybe a referral to a different specialist? urgent referral? i dunno...

did you and your T discuss the possibility of stepping back from processing the memories? it seems to me that would aggravate the sleep situation even if it isn't the cause (which it may be)...

~ waves ~

i wish we could step back from processing the memories but they won't stop coming up, and I did call her and ask her how i can get them to stop, but i know that there isn't a way.
I just guess i don't understand cause when my sleep started to go to crap i didn't have the memories or anything like that that i do now. It was just i couldn't sleep and I dealt with it.
I just want to take more of the benedryl pills now and go to sleep so i don't have to feel this anymore.
Thanks jen

Dear Jen,

'Sending hugs.



M.

Dear Jen,
I really feel for you.
I too wish they could see you sooner...maybe get on a waiting list?
Are your parents on the same page?
Do they understand your suffering?
Are they supportive to you?
((((HUGS))))
bizi