Yea, I know, it's Very limiting. Ihave to either work out alone in my house OR go for a walk OUTSIDE by myself. It's hard to find a walking buddy.

I think I came to a conclusion this morning about my mental state. I think what is going on with me is an old term "BURN OUT". I can hear Kramer on Seinfeld, in my head saying "I'm Burned Out Man, I Need my massage!" A massage WOULD be so nice but recently have been out of my price range. I used to get them almost every week when I was married, I NEEDED them along with a subtantial amount of alcohol to put up with the JERK. After 13 years of HIM, anyone would be Burned Out. I wanted OUT after 5 years but THOUGHT things would get better if I stayed, BIG MISTAKE!! It almost ended with a Murder, MINE.

I am going to make a list of things that I Should do today and if I get them done, well, good for me. Me First though. Long, hot shower, a nice breakfast, some Irish tea and something Sweet. Maybe TRY to get out in the sun for a bit.