Hoot...Hoot...

hoot hoot
i need to re-boot
be right back
don't have an attack
hehe

Wow - You're a poet,
And I didn't even know it!
But maybe that's because
You rarely ever show it!

Now, what was your day-job again? Is it secure?

How's the ol' muscles doin' after that workout you got over the weekend? Hope you finally got your fanny unstuck from that kitchen chair. Now all ya gotta do is figure out how to spend all the money you raked in. I happen to know of a very greedy...er, I mean NEEDY...person who could take that worry off your hands...

lol

i think hubby has spent the same dollars about 6x we need new garage doors. a double and a single. round trip tickets for sistermonkey to come for christmas. a chunk towards the studio over the garage. new tires for both vehicles. handyman to help me do the stuff hubby keeps putting off. add it to the savings to add a tanning salon to the club.

me..i want just a little bot to buy a new sewing machine. mine is over 25 yrs old. a friend gave it to me 20 years ago when she got a new one. i make christmas prayer bears. it took me twice as long to make one today. my thinking is i could make twice as many...and make more money. plus i got a bit...well more than a bit frustrated with it today and swore!

so how are you today? get some sleep? nervous? did you ask about the tummy bloat and gas? warn the family?

Yeah...I warned the family. So I suppose I can look forward to spending a day or two alone in my room when I get home. Maybe I should hang around in the kitchen?

Wow, sounds like ya'll spent the money even before you made it. Isn't that always the case? I've already spent my lottery winnings a hundred times, and I don't even play the lottery...

I'm not really all that nervous about the surgery. I just want to get the danged think over with is all. I've decided that if going through this doesn't fix anything, I'm going to do my best to pretend that nothing is wrong anymore. At least for a while. Wonder how that will go over?

I'm just sick and tired of thinking about it all. For the past four months it's been one medical visit after another, sometimes several times a week. I've been studied, probed and prodded like a UFO captive, and It's getting old. I'm sure there'll be a period of disappointment and depression if I strike out, so you might have to listen to me unload myself for a few days. But once I get that out, it's back to life for me!

If only I could get my peronal life back on track...but I'm afraid that would require a miracle...

So how have you been feeling lately, besides tired? You were having it a little rough last week. Has that gotten any better for you?

you know i'll be here for you. either to celebrate or just to listen and try and cheer you up.

keep thinking positive. if this dr didn't think she could find an answer, i doubt she wants to see your insides or give you gas for the heck of it. hmmm find out if she had an older brother. she might just want to get back at all men

same ole thing here for me. if you can't get your spouse or partner to listen, to try and understand...then you have to find others who do. i'm not asking him to "fix" me. i'm not asking him to do anything "for" me. just not make me feel like i am alone in this. kwim?

please tell me that you aren't going alone?

Yeah...I know what you mean. I can't remember how many times I've been asked "what do you want from me!!!", when I really don't want anything at all. I've tried to explain that it's all about attidude, and that it's not any harder to do something cheerfully than it is to do it with an attitude, but that message never seems to get through. I know the Mrs. has had a rough time of her own because of my illness, but what I can never fathom is why she thinks that she's the ONLY ONE who has suffered? I mean, it sure ain't been no walk in the park for me!...

I read something once about how it's common for a person to blame their spouse for something like this instead of blaming the bad luck that caused it. I think that's what's happened to us. The sad part is that the wounds have cut so deeply by now that I'm not sure they can ever heal. I'm a romantic by heart, and I've never believed in divorce, so where does that leave me? My greatest fear is of waking up one day twenty years from now and realizing that I've totally wasted the last two decades of my life.

Okay, so I guess you can tell I'm feeling a little melancholy tonight... Maybe that's because you haven't been here to keep me on my toes! Not to embarrass ya, dear, but I always look for your name whenever I log onto the forums these days. That's because I know you're always good for a pleasant bit of conversation...

awww...to hear the words...honey..please tell what you are really feeling....how the pain feels...what emotions are running thru you....????

*****you have now entered the twilght zone*****

or fantasy island!!!

if the hint of hope is there...work on it. but ( my belief) is that we get one shot at this. i ain't gonna blow it and spend my life lonely with somebody. kids deserve happy parents.

forgiveness. it is hard. forgetting..well...that just doesn't really happen. but you have to forgive yourself first. even if it is for allowing things to change and sour. and forgive the mrs. she is human. and her hubby..her love, is hurting and she can't make him all better. she is a mom. that is what they do.

it takes two. and it seems like when one is trying the other isn't. lol ok..so that wasn't really funny. ironic? do you get defensive? i do. jealous of the time always spent with others. the club..clients...the monkeys...why no one on one with me? sheesh...i'm nice funny...furry....

Okay, girl, but remember you asked for it!!!

I don't know why everything seems so heavy right now. Maybe that surgery is affecting me more than I realize. Sleep is harder than usual.

Basically I'm a straight-forward, outgoing, fun-loving guy. But I have my hidden-side as well. Don't we all?

'Cept maybe I'll PM you. Hart to write much on these short forums, not that the PM's have all that more space.

But if you get the sleepies, don't stay up on account of me! I'll be back again tomorrow, I promise...